Stay Strong

zeroosugar:

minzeroosugar:

I can kill myself.

I remember the day I took all the pills I found in my house, how I wanted to take them all. One by one. I wanted to end everything. I played for hours with the pills, they looked so attractive. I wanted to know what would happen. If I would die or fail like the other time I overdosed. I didn’t even cry. I just sat and stare. All those thoughts. After hours, I didn’t do it. I don’t know why I didn’t. I felt so stupid and worthless, a failure that couldn’t even do it. I was scared. Not scared to die. But scared to fail again.I had a feeling that something was going to happen, that I should be alive.After all those months, nothing happened. I’m still depressed, suicidal and I did try to commit suicide after this. I don’t know if one day everything will be okay. Right now I don’t believe in anything good. Everything is wrong, every little thing.

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